Things are getting pretty exciting here in our one room apartment. God has really been telling Robert some of the things that we are going to be doing and getting us prepared and in position for the good works He has planned for us.
One of my favorite times in my relationship with Robert is when we have nights like last night. No, surprisingly, being 19 and 21, I'm not talking about the Song of Songs part of our relationship. I'm talking about the dirty work God has called us to do. The staying up late because God has called it on our hearts to have some one-on-one time with Him.
Last night I was having a really hard time with what God wants me to do. He wants me to completely surrender every part of everyday to Him. Seeing as this is a fundamental aspect of my faith and found in the Bible countless times, I should be ok with this right? Well... I'm ok with it...being in the Bible. I'm finding it to be a little daunting living out, and had a little mental breakdown last night.
Anyways, God in His loving and faithful ways gave Robert the exact verse that I needed to hear, and it caused Robert to laugh as soon as he read it. The verse was 1 Timothy 2:6, "The farmer should be the first to share in the harvest". I of course being dullheaded didn't quite get it at first and Robert expanded the verse to say that God has big plans for us, yes, but it's not all going to be hard work. Right now, the preparations can be hard and not all the rewarding, but the harvest will come and we will be rewarded and blessed. It's not all going to be hard work, there will be feasts and celebrations to come with the harvest.
That was the encouragement I needed. Along with what Robert did next. He went, after working 12 hours at work that day, after consoling me and my mental breakdown, he went and had His God time. You see, God had told him that he needed to quit his job. This is the job that he's had since he was 16. His first job, and it's been rewarding. God gave it to him right after we first started going out, and I remember how excited he was when he had enough money to get his first cell phone, and how great it was when he realized it was going to be enough money to provide and allow us to get married.
Recently, it hasn't been so great. Nothing wrong with the store or the business. Except that it's hard work. Not that we aren't capable of doing hard work. It's exactly the opposite. Robert is one of the hardest working people that I know...in fact, he's easily doing the work of 2-3 people at his job. And that's the hard part about it. The hardest part is when he comes home from work so exhausted that the only physical contact we have is a weary, exhausted hug and a plea for a back massage.
Needless to say, his working the amount of multiple people at work has left him with nothing left to give at home and God recently told Robert that it wasn't good. So here Robert was, after consoling me and being the vessel of God that I desperately needed, starting his God time at 12:30 pm knowing that he needed to be up by 6:00am the next day, with the goal of getting 10 resumes in before he went to bed.
I know this post is getting long, but I wanted to let you know the small and big accomplishments along the way. And this is my favorite part of the journey. Knowing that Robert and I are training for our big race together. We are preparing ourselves, and allowing God to mold us, as we are getting ready for the good works God has called us to do.
Peace and love,
Kate Nowak
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